"identifiable"

Written: 5th October 2020

Collection "your heart" Piece 3 Inspired by Daisy Johnson from Agents of SHIELD

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The world is such a big place,

How much of it is being held up on my shoulders?

How much of it is my responsibility?

What will it take for it all to come crashing down?

I wasn’t brought up with love,

You assume that I’m supposed to trust you?

That I won’t think that you’ll just use me and throw me away?

That’s funnier than any comedy I’ve ever seen.

I have raised myself,

Though surrounded by perfect lies,

You don’t need to add to that mile-long list,

Make it easier for us all, please?

I made a life for myself,

Protecting the world from you,

Until you come and scooped me up,

Turning my life upside down.

I never thought I would be in the real world –

A place where I’m me,

Not a person hidden between metal sheets,

You helped me see and experience truth.

My partner in crime,

You’re the only one who gets me,

Does everything, goes to every end,

To make sure I’m safe.

When my world shattered,

When I couldn’t control myself,

When I couldn’t recognise myself,

You brought me back.

When my heart travelled to space,

To the other end of the universe,

Imploding on itself,

Through time, you pulled your end of the tether.

The only thing that has kept me afloat, has been my family.

To see my family replaced by pieces of non-consequential scraps,

To see my physical self bring destruction to essence and my world,

Only brought fuelled rage.

Time is of no essence anymore.

One second to the next and the whole world has changed,

The world is on our shoulders,

Yet again.

One way.

One way to stop it all.

You chose.

You gave yourself to save the world.

Again.

I lost the most important person in my heart.

You left, for a good cause.

But you left me broken.

Your presence in my heart healed me.

Knowing you love me.

You gladly gave me what I needed:

Love.

I was once a little girl with a made-up name,

An unidentifiable figure,

Drowning in the dark depths of the world,

Stuck in her own head.

Thank you for helping me save myself,

Giving me purpose,

A family,

And finding my true identity.