"real"

Written: 3rd September 2020

Collection "my head" Piece 4

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Light drowning your silhouette

Are you my angel?

Or my devil in disguise?

Have you been here this whole time?

Screwing this mind of mine?

The strings you’ve attached aren’t letting any time soon.

You could be an illusion.

Maybe I’m delusional?

Maybe you’re a perfect lie in my head.

I want you to be real,

I want to understand you,

I want you to understand me.

But you keep pulling me,

I can’t stretch that far.

I don’t like you holding that noose around my neck.

What if I don’t want you anymore?

What if I finally want peace in my heart?

Will you let me go?

Your hands have restricted me,

Your words have left permanent scars,

Your actions are drowning me, killing me.

You shove images in my head,

Audio no one should have the privilege of hearing,

You choose to ring my mind like your hand-towel.

I want to hate you.

I want to be able to say that, SCREAM that.

I want freedom and peace.

But I want your arms – that can turn cold.

But I want you attached to my hip.

But I want you to glue yourself to my every thought.

Help.

ME!